Title: Awakened Again: A Journey of Compassionate Serving and Kingdom Alignment
In 2017, I did the Mizizi experience for the first time. It was life-changing. But when I started it again in February of this year, I wasn’t prepared for what God had in store. It has felt like a fresh wind—new truths, deeper conviction, and renewed clarity on who I am and what I’m called to do. I’m not just relearning, I’m being reawakened.
This time, everything feels personal. God is reminding me—I am His child. He hasn’t given up on me. Despite my flaws, mistakes, and moments of wandering, His love remains. That truth has gripped me in a deeper way. It’s no longer just head knowledge—it’s heart transformation. I feel His invitation to follow Him fully. No more half-hearted steps. I’m choosing full surrender.
One lesson that pierced my heart was the weight of sin. Sin doesn’t just “miss the mark”—it brings death. Spiritual death. Emotional death. Even societal and environmental decay. I now carry this question within me: Where am I dying because of sin? It’s a sobering thought, but one that keeps me grounded in the need for daily repentance. Jesus came not only to die for me but to model how to live. His life is my example, and it is possible—by the Holy Spirit—to walk in uprightness.
Quiet time and prayer are no longer a checklist. They’ve become lifelines. I’m learning to sit with God, journal, reflect, listen. It’s not just about talking to Him; it’s about communion with Him. The more I practice this, the more my heart aligns with His.
A powerful takeaway from this Mizizi season is the call to evangelize. I used to think I needed a special style or personality to preach or disciple. But I’ve realized God wants to use me—the way I am. My story. My voice. My uniqueness. There’s no formula. Just a heart willing to be led by the Spirit. With that confidence, I now step boldly into sharing the gospel—not as a preacher on a stage, but as a disciple in everyday life.
Module 4 of the Fearless Institute, Compassionate Serving, landed so beautifully alongside this journey. I see how Jesus served with compassion—not pity, not superiority—but with love that restored dignity. True service, I’ve learned, isn’t about giving handouts. It’s about creating space for people to rise.
This truth was echoed loudly in a book I’ve been reading: Helping Hurts. What a powerful title. It challenged me to rethink how I help others. Sometimes, in our desire to be kind or generous, we end up hurting people—making them dependent rather than empowered. This book reminded me that real help should equip, not just relieve. I don’t want to bring fish to the table anymore; I want to teach how to fish, and sit beside others while they learn.
All of this has made me reflect deeply on money. Finances have been a long-time struggle. Not because God hasn’t provided—He has—but because of inconsistency in budgeting and giving. Yet I keep hearing God whisper, You are a kingdom financier. That calling is sacred. It requires stewardship, discipline, and obedience. So today I’m asking the Holy Spirit to invade this area of my life. To help me budget, give faithfully, and live with financial purpose.
Perhaps the most beautiful part of this journey is community. I’m not walking alone. I’m part of a discipleship group. I’m also facilitating a Mizizi group—something I never imagined doing again. But God, in His mercy, is using me to raise other disciples. It’s humbling. It’s holy. And it gives me hope that this journey isn’t just about me. It’s about the many lives connected to mine.
To anyone reading this, maybe you’re feeling stuck, disconnected, or unsure of where your faith is going. Let me remind you: God never gives up. No matter how far you feel, His arms are open. Step back in. Be real with Him. Rediscover your purpose. Reignite your passion. There’s more ahead than you think.
This Mizizi season has reminded me of who I am:
- A child of God.
- A vessel of His love.
- A disciple who makes disciples.
- A servant with compassion.
- A kingdom financier in training.
And most of all—a woman awakened again.